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Saturday, July 5th, 2008
2:25 pm
My new do
Yes am still here, sorry for lack of updates. Nothing really to update, had a good birthday and haven't really been doing anything interesting since, except give up smoking. Had a couple of mishaps (fags) but on the whole am doing well.

Anyway, got my hair done today. Pink streaks and I LOVE THEM. Hope you do too!!!

Current Mood: creative
Sunday, May 25th, 2008
1:55 pm
Too much thinking time
This bank holiday weekend has been a very quiet one for me. I was suppose to go to a BBQ today but due to typical bank holiday rain, it has been cancelled.

So I been sat around thinking about things; my life mainly. I am due to turn 28 on Thursday and not really looking forward to it. I guess my life isn't quite where I thought it would be. Of course I assumed I would be settled with someone, on a good career path or living the life of those 4 from Sex and the City. But instead I am single, in an okay job with the council and not getting anywhere near that much sex as they do in New York.

I try not to think about it too much but I do get frustrated that I am single. I feel I have alot to offer the right man if they would let me and I could really make them happy. I am smart, funny, committed, reliable and many other things but most men can't seem to get past the big mouth, big hair and big personality. I also do not have the greatest track record when it comes to men and the type I choose so that might have something to do with it. I just don't want to spend all of my life sat on the shelf. I split up with Luke nearly 2 years ago and haven't really had a proper relationship since which is a bit of a worry. But then I am not always out and about so don't meet new people so therefore never going to find someone that way. I am happy with my single life but the single life can sometimes be a lonely life. I find anything in my life is so much more enjoyable if I have someone to share it with and every now and then I do think that they is a void where that 'special someone' should be. But then am not settling for second best either, so am prepared to wait. I do like the single life apart from the one obvious massive void but the less said about that the better lol. Basically I don't need a man in my life, I just want one.

I have had a few special men in my life and quite often, I end up getting used by them though not always intentionally. There have been boyfriends and then just male friends who have used my good nature, optimism, proactiveness and generousity to their advantage and then moved on. The male friends quite often get girlfriends and then we don't see each other anymore. I guess it is partly my fault for being such an open person but it does leave you wide open for exposure. But I can't change who I am, maybe just have to have faith that some of them might stick around. I so sometimes think that Martyn might disown me one day. I know we are not dating but we are quite close friends and he gets alot of encouragement, advice and support from me and one day, when he does change his ways, he will be gone. Martyn will either meet someone or just move on as he won't need me anymore and that will be that. And there is nothing I can do about it, just hope to God that he does remember me when he goes his way and I am left by myself once more. Of course not all of them leave, but there is often a change in their behaviour when they come to realise that 'Leoni's Services' ar no longer required.

I have been thinking alot about going travelling recently. Completely blowing this joint and going to Thailand, Australia, New Zealand and then who knows and God knows how long for. I just feel that I don't have many ties in Swindon or even England so why don't I do this while I can. I think if I don't I might regret it and I have always promised myself never to live a life of regrets. I have been doing loads of research about this but am now desperate to book it.

Right, I should do something a bit more constructive now. Am annoyed as I wanted to see my friends today and then have cancelled and now doing something that I don't want to do. GGRRR!!!!

Current Mood: thinking
Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
9:47 pm
The Promised Photos

Yes I went over 2 months ago but a couple of Toyko pictures for you!  I could post them all but I won't and I apologise that they are not under a cut but am knackered and can't be assed to do it!  ENJOY!

Current Mood: busy
Monday, May 19th, 2008
4:03 pm
Another long update
My God I have been crap at updating on here recently. I log onto the net, check my emails, facebook, weather and then sit there and think ‘am sure there was something else I wanted to do’ and its not until I have logged off and started watching TV that I remember I wanted to update LJ. And then the longer I leave it, the more forgetful I become. So please excuse this long entry and I won’t blame you if you don’t read it all.

Firstly, Tokyo was AMAZING!! Easily one of the best weeks of my life; the atmosphere, scenery, food, people all blew my mind. The weather wasn’t always that good but I don’t care, it was excellent. Mount Fuji was a definite highlight but I enjoyed the Ghibli museum, riding the subway, getting lost around Shinjuku, the anime (though not enough Death Note stuff for my liking), the Japanese baths, the gorgeous saki and everything else. A week just wasn’t long enough but am already planning to return, with more time and money of course. I could ramble on about it for hours but won’t, I can’t believe I have been back nearly 2 months already.

Since I have been back I seem to have fallen into that dreadful routine of work, gym, sleep, wake up, work, gym, sleep. Possibly other entertainment such as drinking or cinema in-between if I am lucky. Seem to be stuck in a bit of a rut at the moment but am determined to get myself out of this soon, watch this space…

I went to Alton Towers last month which rocked. Bloody Tesco’s though are now giving away free day out vouchers, couldn’t have done that about 3 weeks ago. But I went on Nemesis, Rita Queen of Speed, Oblivion, the log flumes, Screwball Wizard, Corkscrew and all the other fab rides. As it was quiet because we went on a Monday there was hardly any queues. I got straight off Nemesis and was straight back on it within 10 minutes – BRILLIANT!!!!

Then over bank holiday weekend I visited my home from home, the gorgeous Exmouth. The weather wasn’t quite as sunny as I hoped but it didn’t rain so I went to the beach twice, had an ice-cream, got pissed up in Timepiece and saw some of my old friends from uni, which is always a joy! I love it down there, should really go there more often.

After that I haven’t been doing much due to lack of money though I did treat myself to episodes 1-8 of Death Note to amuse myself over the weekend. So I wanted to save money by staying in but ended up spending £16 on the DVD so that backfired a bit. Also I am going to see The Ting Tings tonight in Oxford so am forking out for that though more in petrol to get there and back than I am in the bloody tickets. Worth it though as they rock! That’s not my name, that’s not my name and all that hee hee.

There is of course one more final announcement I feel I should make – ITS MY BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK!! Don’t know if I should be so happy that I am turning 28 pretty much in exactly the same place as last year. Well, that is a lie as I now have a job I enjoy and a mortgage with more friends and social life. But I am still on my own, something I never thought would happen to me but I suppose there is plenty of time for all that. Just annoys me cos I know I have a lot to offer the right person when he comes along but the men of Swindon are foolish if they don’t snap me up. I can make anyone happy, just can’t seem to find someone who will let me.

Anyway, am writing this at work so should really go and do some. Am peeved as I have to work until 5pm to cover the phones and need to leave Swindon before 6.30 to get to Oxford for the Ting Tings. Oh well, might just miss some of the support which is usually crap.

Promise not to try and leave it too long until the next update and Tokyo pics will follow shortly.

Love you all,
Leoni xxxxx

Current Mood: accomplished
Sunday, April 6th, 2008
3:27 pm
I went out last night on the tiles and ended up in a club I don't normally go to. Cutting a long story short I asked a bloke for his number and got the flirt divert number!!!!!!!!!!!

Why do these things always happen to me? I have to laugh about it otherwise I will cry.

I knew I should have stayed in Tokyo.

Current Mood: melancholy
Monday, March 17th, 2008
8:04 pm
Tomorrow I am off to Tokyo for a week, am all packed and very excited but very nervous as well. Just somewhere completely different and its a long time to spend with just one other perosn. However I plan to make it the trip of a lifetime and that is all that matters.

Have checked in online, will let you know when I get back if its quicker or not!!!

Anyway, will be sure to fill you all in on my return!!

Leoni xx

Current Mood: excited
Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
9:04 pm
Four weeks today
Yes it is indeed four weeks today until I go to Japan, my God that has come around fast!!! Actually need to start thinking about what clothes I might take, money, travel insurance etc - how exciting. Have finally come to realise that it will NEVER happen between Martyn and myself and am actually okay with that. He really annoys me cos he never contacts me or organises things for us (he did for about 2 weeks but that novelty has worn off now.) So now I am determined not to contact him though I know it will have NO effect whatsoever. Anyway, so he doesn't think about me now, why would he if we were going out??

My weekend in Exmouth was good, got very drunk on the Friday night which I haven't done for a while so spent most of Saturday on the beach absolutely hanging. It was good to see all of my friends though, must make more of an effort to go down there more often.

The weekend before I went to London to see Lord of the Rings musical which was amazing, much better than I thought it would be. Spent the night in London and then went to the Tower of London to see the jewels and stuff and then did some shopping in Covent Garden, weather was lush as well.

Had a meeting with my youth manager today, fingers crossed to have my own youth group after Easter which will be good for me, need a challenge and youth work is what I want to do full time so need to do more to get where I want to be.

Off to see Vampire Weekend on Saturday night - well looking forward to that!!!!!!! Haven't been to see any bands in a while.

Current Mood: chipper
Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
8:05 pm
Best laid plans and all that!!
Well, all my plans for this weekend completely went to shit. I tried and failed to get down to Exmouth though I think I will go in a couple of weeks. So I text a couple of friends to see if they were available but one is away and the other one is working. My pub mates are all in Prague this weekend and then Martyn was suppose to be taking me out for a pool match tonight but he has got 'man flu' so that isn't happening now.

Am in a much better mood than I was on Thursday. I think all my January blues came to a head and I just felt like complete crap. And I was annoyed that I didn't get to go to Devon, none of my friends were available and I really wanted to do something fun this weekend, work was rubbish plus I had to go to my second job in the evening and I just wanted to go home and cry. Thankfully I sorted myself out now and put some things in perspective and realised that it was all just petty things but I suppose it meant alot to me at the time. I woke up on Friday realising that it was February, a new month and therefore a chance for a change of attitude and a new beginning.

Have a massive void in my life right now as I have finished watching Death Note. Am missing it already though I was a bit disappointed in the ending. Won't bore you with my theories and thoughts as I don't think many who read my journal is interested but still, must find more to watch. Naruto perhaps???

Went to Marlborough today with my family and bought 2 new CD's; Vampire Weekend and Jeff Buckley. Both of which are sheer brilliance. And We Are Scientists are going to be playing an intimate gig there next month but it is when I am in Japan - gggrr. Oh well, am going to see Pigeon Detectives in May and possibly Vampire Weekend in a couple of weeks so its not all bad.

Six weeks and three days until I go to the Land of the Rising Sun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: optimistic
Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
7:38 pm
getting away
I am desperate for a change of scenery - feel very closed in right now. Just need to get away, blow some steam, get drunk, get laid, just get away!!! Sick of waiting for Martyn to organise Portsmouth so might be going to Exmouth this weekend, fingers crossed. I need to see the beach and somewhere where the drinks are cheap and the men are young and easy.

Anyway, all is well with me apart from that.

Current Mood: desperate to get away
Sunday, January 27th, 2008
1:59 pm
Bloody boring Sunday
GGGAAAHH!!! So bored already today and its only just turned 2pm this afternoon. My plans for today have fallen through and I can't be bothered to type what they were and why they have been cancelled (clearly I have the time but just not the inclination.)

This weekend actually hasn't been too bad. Went down the pub with my mates on Friday night and got suitably tanked so didn't feel too clever yesterday. Then last night I went to the cinema to see Sweeney Todd, good film, enjoyed it immensely. Best part of it was Sacha Baron Cohen. When I saw his name in the openings credits I did worry that Tim Burton might have done so mis-casting but he is brilliant. Johnny Depp was superb as always, overall very well done. I then went to bed at 10.30 last night due to Friday nights drinking catching up with me.

Am already dreading Valentines Day, now I am not a big romantic and have never been that much into public affections etc etc but I guess I am only bitter and twisted cos I have never had a decent Valentines Day, they have always sucked balls. But its always nice to know that someone out there likes and wants you. I am still building up courage to talk to Martyn about things but I think the gods are working against me cos everytime we try and meet up something happens and we don't. We have been planning a weekend to Portsmouth for yonks and still not done it, everything crossed again for this weekend. Still can't decide whether to leave it to him but I have gone over and over this in my head and its doing my head in so try not to think, talk or write about it too much now.

Work is going well, busy which I prefer. Sometimes I do worry that I am in the wrong job cos there is no career ladder as such for me to climb. Am only staying as it will do for now but do think I need something with some bigger prospects further down the line. Am sort of looking but not really, just when I feel like it but I have put my CV's on a few websites with the line of thinking of getting them to come to me. Actually, I try that line of thinking with men as well but it doesn't really work.

Current Mood: bored
Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
10:23 am
Life in 2008 is going well, 15 days in
This strike between Martyn and myself is easily the best thing I have ever done. I told him that I wanted him to be more proactive in our friendship and so far he has absolutely blown me away. Now it hasn’t been easy for me not to text, call, email him but I have resisted and it has paid off.

He has organised nights on his Nintendo for us plus I got a text from him late last night asking me to play pool with him this week. We are also going to Portsmouth this weekend as that is where his parents live and I am really excited about that.

I guess me backing off has worked. I have only contacted him if I needed to i.e. things about Japan and not bothered him otherwise and since then he has been contacting me loads. Things are probably the best they have ever been between us but am not sure whether or not it is because he has missed me or because I told him that if he wanted to see me, he had to make it happen. Either way it doesn’t matter as it has worked in my favour. It was strange as I was going to phone him tonight to ask him to play pool and he beat me to it, which is even better.

Work is crap at the moment, everyone is really stressed and busy and taking it out on everyone else. They are also blaming everyone else for them not doing their work when there are some people who are just lazy and don’t want to work (I am one of those people but can pull my finger out when the heat is on.) I might be changing jobs soon for one with more money but I will have to drive out of Swindon for it so my pay increase will go on petrol. Will find out more details today and decide from there.

Only 7 more episodes of Death Note to go, am trying to pace myself as it will be the end of an era when I finish watching it and also a massive void will be in my life.

My financial status is a bit dire at the moment. I am trying not to spend anything and have actually been very good recently, avoiding the sales, not going out but all my money seems to be disappearing either into Yen or on my MOT and car tax. I did try and be so good but all my bills seem to come at once. Next months wages have gone already and I haven’t even been paid yet. AARRGGGHHH!!! Oh well, I need a car and anything spent on Japan will be completely worth it so its okay. Just frustrating for me as I am a hermit in January and will be one in February as well. I do have a mortgage as well which is draining but again, love my house and wouldn’t change that so I guess I should quit moaning.

Current Mood: busy
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
12:43 pm
2008 will be the year for me
I have decided to make 2008 MY YEAR! Not sure why, can't put my finger on it but I have a good feeling about it. I have some things lined up that are going to be brilliant and I just feel very positive about it. Just hope nothing comes along in January that completely bursts my bubble.


Becoming a homeowner
Getting a job that I actually enjoy and am good at
Meeting new people
Going to Sheffield
Watching Death Note

LOWS OF 2007

Getting rejected
Making some silly decisions and not knowing what to do for the best now
Staying in a job I hated for 6 months longer than I should have done

Am sure I have other ones but these are the only ones that are at the forefront of my mind. 2007 was certainly better for me from August onwards so that is why I feel that 2008 will be brilliant for me from beginning to end.

Last night was good, I always find new years a bit of an anticlimax but it was a good night none the less. My strike with Martyn has officially begun now and I am glad. He was saying last night that we are going to have a Wii night on Saturday so watch this space. I still don't trust his memory and now I can't remind him so we shall see.......... We had some really good conversations towards the end but I am getting a bit worried about a demostration I might have to do for him on Saturday. V long story but anyway, I hope he forgets that!!!!

Have no plans whatsoever today except watching endless amounts of death note, will not know what to do with myself when I am done with that.

Current Mood: determined
Saturday, December 29th, 2007
5:40 pm
What is it about men????
I have some serious issues. After completely falling for Martyn who is easily one of the most selfish, ungrateful and lazy people I have ever met, I have finally told him that it what I think of him. Needless to say it didn't go down too well. I just sent him an email yesterday asking why, in this friendship, does it always have to be about him, why can't it be about me? I organise everything (if it wasn't for me there would be no trip to Japan) and if I want to see him, why do I have to do the chasing? He NEVER asks me about what is going on in my life which just seems rude to me. So I told him I was going on strike about organising things because he can't expect me to do everything. I got an email back the same day saying that he is trying to change his selfish attitude but doesn't know how to. He wants me to be patient and bear with him whilst he sorts himself out. He also told me that we weren't going out and that is why he doesn't ask me anything, to respect my privacy! Just because we are not dating doesn't mean he can't be interested in my life.

After reading the email I phoned him and we were on the phone for about 30 minutes. He told me not to get emotionally involved and calm down (I was calm, much more after I had told him what was going on). I told him he just has to factor me in sometimes and I don't realise I am asking that much when I try and get him to think of me. I am not looking forward to this strike cos I might not see him until Japan. On the email he said about cancelling Japan which freaked me out, he can be so melodramtic when he wants to be.

I think we both got some things off our chest which was good because I was getting a bit sick of doing everything and he didn't know. It had been building up for a while and probably should have said something earlier but never mind, done now. Think he is still coming out with me on Monday night and I will feel better once I see him then. Am glad we are still friends and cleared the air, roll on Monday night!!!!!!

Am annoyed with myself because I am throwing away good men for this twat who just doesn't appreciate me. God I hate the way I think sometimes.

I am having the most boring weekend as well cos am trying to save money so have way too much thinking time on this. Did do some retail therapy today which was good though mainly bought clothes for work.

I guess I just am feeling sorry for myself and want some attention.

Current Mood: crappy
Tuesday, December 18th, 2007
8:28 pm
I get frustrated by the way that I think
I am not that much of a thinker as in I do rather than think about doing it, but sometimes, my line of thinking sucks. I wish people either think like me or do things that I think they should do. But then I am my own worse enemy in some things. I know what I want and what I need and when these things come my way, I turn them down for stupid reasons!!! AAAAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Had a fabulous time in Sheffield with Paul but my God was it cold up there. Anyway, had fun playing pool, going out for food, seeing all the sights and finally meeting Paul. And I feel that the Nintendo DS should get a mention as well :-)

I don't feel too good at the moment, keep coughing, that sucks as well.

Nearly done all my Christmas shopping, just one more to get now - whoop whoop.

Current Mood: crappy
Sunday, December 9th, 2007
5:14 pm
What an exciting life - ish!!
Well, I have been very busy week this week. It was my Christmas do on Thursday night which was a free bar. Actually was very restrained considering, was more knackered than hungover on Friday but it was still a good night. Got to know some of work collegues maybe a bit more than I would like but then they could easily say the same about me. Then yesterday my best friend got married which was lovely. She is one of those people who has been dreaming of her wedding since she was a young girl and it was very 'Lucy.' The attention to detail was amazing, unfortunately the weather wasn't but nobody let that spoil the day. Everything was either white or royal blue and matched perfectly. I just hate all the hanging around with weddings. I know its interesting if you are having your photo taken or part of the wedding party but if you are not, what are you suppose to do? I sat around for 2 hours waiting for the meal and afterwards I could have quite happily put my head on the table and had a nap. My sister was hanging as she had had her works do on the Friday night so we were party poopers and left early, as did everyone else under 30. I think Lucy felt a bit bad as all her dancers were leaving but nobody could keep their eyes open. Plus it was freezing which didn't help. But the day was amazing and I am very happy for her!!!!!

But my big excitement is happening on Wednesday. Yes the big day for me has finally arrived as I am off to Sheffield to meet lostaddiction and I CAN NOT wait. I already feel like I know him loads already but it will be so good to finally meet face to face. Just hope he is as excited as I am.

I have been very organised with the Christmas shopping. Have got most of mine but need to get a couple more which I might get in Sheffield. Have even written most of my cards ready to post and done some Christmas wrapping, so unlike me. But have had a lazy Sunday at home but very productive in other ways which is good.

I did find some money today to buy myself some new jeans and a belt for my week away. Am having a 'I hate my wardrobe' time at the moment and all my clothes are either work ones, old or just so out of fashion and I am just too tight to throw them out. Roll on the Christmas sales where I will just completely revamp my clothes. 2008 will be a new Leoni but in a good fashionable way, not a horrible way (I hope.) I think I am in a bit of a rut and I always buy the same things and don't even think about trying other clothes. Plus I have lost some weight since I moved house so should be a bit more brave. I do look at other girls and they look amazing and I guess that there is no reason why I shouldn't but I just assume that there is a reason why. Be more brave Leoni, it might just pay off!!!

Current Mood: tired
Wednesday, November 21st, 2007
8:30 pm
new adventures!!
December 12th - 3 days in Sheffield

March 18th 2008 - a week in Japan

Am very excited about both of them though they are both completely different in their own right!!!!


Current Mood: bouncy
Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
10:13 pm
12th December 2007
lostaddiction I am coming your way on the above date, you have been warned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: giddy
Monday, November 5th, 2007
4:35 pm
Guess whos back!!!!
Firstly I apologise for my complete lack of posting, not greatly missed I know but I have been very busy with my new house and didn’t have internet access for ages and in that time, lost my love for LJ. However, I decided it is about time to let you know what has been going on with me.

Firstly, I am the proud joint owner of a 3-bedroom semi detached house in Swindon town centre. I moved in at the end of August and am absolutely loving it. I am within walking distance to my work, shops, and pubs so lets just say my bank balance has taken a bit of a hit but it is totally worth it. My bank balance has also taken a complete hit because my sister and I decided to get our bathroom redone and that is much more expensive and hassle than I anticipated. But it was finally finished yesterday and looks lush so can’t complain.

I met someone and completely fell for them and it turns out that they don’t feel the same way about me. We started off as good friends and I ended up falling for them but I made a move a couple of weeks ago and got blown off, that sucks like nothing before. In one way I am glad I know because now I can move on and perhaps be open to other opportunities that before I wouldn’t have done because I was too hung up on Martyn. And we are still really good friends and can talk about anything which is also very special and I don’t want to lose that. I am just gutted though because I did fancy the pants off him and was convinced he felt the same way. Even all my friends were telling me to go for it which never helps. I get the feeling that he is just after friendship as he doesn’t have many friends and that he isn’t completely over his ex girlfriend. Now that is a mess I do NOT want to get involved in. I did think about trying one more time as the first time I came onto him I was a little drunk (not that drunk that I didn’t know what I was doing, just drunk enough to give myself uber-confidence.) Don’t think I will though as I will appear desperate, especially if he says no again, and I don’t want it to get to the stage that he can’t see me because I keep throwing myself at him every time that we meet. I guess I have to understand that you can’t force these things, if he doesn’t like me, he doesn’t like me. At least I stayed true to myself and I tried and now know, otherwise I would be waffling on right now about how much I like him, how much we have in common etc etc. You just never know what is around the corner and life is all about timing, if its meant to be, its meant to be. But for now I will draw a line under it and not put my life on hold for me, he certainly isn’t doing it for me. I feel a bit stupid actually because I thought he liked me my life became quite consumed by him and looking back, he didn’t feel the same way but I just convinced myself that he did. But lets look on the bright side, we are still close friends who are planning a trip to Japan together and I didn’t make a COMPLETE fool of myself (just a little one!)

I am planning another trip other than Japan though I going by myself to Sheffield :-)

Haven’t given much thought to Christmas at all, probably should as I always find I have more people to buy for than I first think of. Plus my money situation isn’t brilliant due to new bathroom and other things but never mind, no point me earning my pennies if I don’t get to spend them on myself every now and then.

I am still working for Swindon Borough Council but in the finance department which is sooooooooooooo much more enjoyable than my old job. I work Monday to Fridays on flexi time and as I said earlier, it takes me less than 5 minutes on foot to get to walk. Plus the Internet connection is brilliant and everybody is very relaxed, who could ask for anything more??

Am sure that there are other less interesting things going on in my life but I do not want to overload with information at one go, plus if I can’t think of them straight away then they are probably not worth knowing.

Current Mood: accomplished
Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
8:17 pm
its me, finally
I MOVE HOUSE ON THURSDAY!!! Well, I get the keys but don't physically move in for another couple of weeks we want to do some redecorating and unpacking and get the house homely before we move. It still hasn't sunk in that I have a mortgage but probably will soon when the mortgage payments start coming out of my account!

Beautiful Days festival was BRILLIANT AND INCREDIBLY MUDDY! It rained most of the weekend which was awful but you just have to make the best of a bad situation. The music made up for it all though, I saw KT Tunstall, Dreadzone, Willy Mason, Gogol Bordello, Mr Hudson and the Library, Bill Bailey, Levellers, Bens Brother, Electric Soft Parade and many others that I can't always think of right now. I do love going to festivals but the camping part isn't my favourite bit especially cos it was so cold and damp in the tent. I would just drink more to try and get over it. I was ready to come home yesterday though as I really wanted a hot shower and some decent food. Beautiful Days isn't as commercial as some festivals but that is what I like about it, there are only 2 music tents and a dance tent so it feels somewhat intimate even with 10000 other people.

My new job is going okay, not brilliant but it is early days. It is ideal that its only 5 minute walk from my house. There is only one other woman who can do the job and she seems to be keeping me at arms length as she likes to see it as her job. But I have only been there 3 weeks so it is early days.

I do apologise for my absence on here, I seem to be spending all my time on facebook. That site seems to suck the life out of me but I love it, its so stalkerish and yet addictive.

I don't think much of this summer weather, summer I do think is actually over *mourns*

Current Mood: busy
Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
10:52 am
being ill
I feel like shit. I have a REALLY bad cold and a job interview at 12. I want to cancel but I don't think I can do the interview again but now I think I won't get the job cos I am pilled up to my eyeballs and therefore not living on this planet right now. I just want to curl up in bed and watch DVD's, GGRR!!

Plus its my last week of work so if I phone in sick they probably won't believe it. I know it looks a bit suss but if I am ill, I am ill. God I hate being ill. Have done nothing but blow my nose for the last 20 minutes.

Right, must go and make myself look presentable, so not up for this.

Current Mood: sick
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